I am okay

Okay, I'm sorry I haven't blogged in forever. I've just been so busy with school, friends, girls and life.

So, update on school, I am leaving in 10 days. Seniors get out of school early. I got to do my senior project, which is a long presentation about myself and bullshit like that. I honestly think that they should make us do the senior presentation freshmen year because this project is based on getting to know you as a person, well why would they make us do it when we are leaving and graduating? why do they want to get to know us when we leave? its like telling someone "Hello" when actually you're saying "Goodbye" I don't know maybe I see things differently. I have my college orientation next Wednesday. I am stoked as hell. I don't know how I am going to take college but reguardless I am excited. To be honest I am happy the year is ending but when I think about the people that have came into my life this year and me leaving, it makes me sad. I mean I am in an all girl choir and I am a soprano 2 and we have 9 of us in the section and we are all really good friends and I love all of them and I hope to stay friends with every single one of them and I am the only senior and our pops concert is coming up and its like the last HURRAH! concert before the seniors leave. Well needless to say I am going to cry. I am going to cry at class day when all the seniors come to school and we have a huge assembly in front of parents and the underclassmen and I am going to cry at graduation because I will see the girls in choir, the friends I have in band, the last time I will probably see some people. I mean honestly the class of 2010 is splitting up and going our own routes on life. Some of the people that I have known ever since I was 5 will be leaving and I will probably never see them again. Bottom line I am excited to have a change of life.

Friends update. So Tym and John moved in with me. I like that they live with me because they are very easy to live with. I've gotten a lot closer to Tym and I am glad because I've been wanting to get close to Tym for a long time. Jason's birthday is today. He is 18, Finally!. Jason and I have gotten really close. I hang out with him everday. He really has because someone very special to me, he considers me one of his bestest friends now and I feel the same way. Needless to say me and Jason are set because we've known eachother for 8 years and we've work hard to get where we are. He's just been helping me through a lot. Katie and I aren't as good of friends as we use to be. I am not gonna talk details, but it kinda sucks cause I always thought I was gonna be the one to fuck up our friendship but I guess i proved myself wrong. I still love Katie as a person and a friend but I've taken a lot of emotional blows lately and she has been apart of them. It's gonna take me a minute to soak up the changes but I will adapt, I always do. Molly and Max are becoming two pretty frequent people in my life latly. Max I am hanging with more and I am beginning to really understand Max and really starting to respect him so much. Molly I am hanging with more on a one on one time. It's pretty cool, I find that I can talk to Molly and she listens. I love it. I got someone I know I can be open with. Michelle, well Michelle is amazing everyday of her life and the only thing that has changed with me and her is that I love her more. Sarah and I are becoming more like friends and less like aquaintances. I am glad. I also have made A lot of underclassmen friends. They have become some of the best people I have ever met. I don't want to leave because I will miss them.

Girls...Well, I have been busy. Alix and I are more like friends who are in love with eachother but refuse to go out with eachother. I love Alix still, very much. But I am to the point to where I worry about Aix and what she does with herself. But I am not gonna get jealous over if she dates other people cause I am sure she has she just didn't want to tell me. I am talking to my friend Dust and I like her but I cannot date her. I don't think it's a great idea. I am talking to this other girl named Alex and she is cute, outgoing, chill as hell and she makes me fell like flying. Then there is Hope. I've liked Hope for the longest time. To be honest if I could date anyone, It would be her.

Life, well I got my car and a license. I am getting a job. I am growing up and learning that I am not as bad as I thought I was